This site is in tribute of my Nana (Sheila Smith)who sadly passed away early this year 2008. My Nana was the most Fantastic, Energetic, Loving, Kind and Considerate person in the 'WORLD' and everyone who knew her loved her just as much as My Mum (Miffy), Sisters Emma and Jodie and myself do. Well where to start...My nana (Sheila) was an 'Absolute Inspiration' to ME and my Sisters Emma and Jodie and also my Mum (Miffy). All 4 of us loved her so so much and still do even though she is not here anymore after having a long and suffering battle with Motor Nueron Disease (MND) for 3 years. Ever since i can remember from being a young child i can always recall my nana being very very active person and always kept herself busy. Whether it be cleaning the house, garden or baking she always got us involved no matter what!!! My sister Emma and i always stayed over at Nana and Grandads as much as we could because we LOVED IT!! It was like a holiday for us and also it got us away from Mum and Dad for a while. We were so grateful and honoured to be there with both of them (Nana & Grandad), helping do anything they wanted us to do was such a priviledge and never too much for Emma and Me to do. Emma and Me always loved helping Nana bake whether it be Pies, Cakes or Sausage Rolls because we were always eating as we went along hence why im so fat now lol, but Nana always made sure there were things to be done and learnt us new things in the house and Grandad was always pottering about in the garage in the back garden. When she first got diagnosed with 'MND' we were all in shock and didnt know what was going to happen or what the disease actually was and how it would effect her so to a certain extent the fear didnt sink in at that particular moment. Having gone to Sheffield Hospital on numerous occasions to see the specialists (Who were Fantastic) we then started to understand the effects of MND and that there is still to this day NO CURE. Me and my Family will never forget the day when we actually read the Information Booklets etc about MND and read what would happen to her, it was the most awful thing in the world for anyone to go through, let alone having to watch my SPECIAL Nana to go through. At first the disease took her wrists and then led to the full length of her arms which was so terrifying to watch as she was so active and always did things for herself but now she couldnt eat for herself or even use her arms so we all had to help out with general things which we didnt mind at all but just so so hard to see her to detiriate so quickly. Eventually MND took grasp of her legs and also her throat and swallowing untill she could do absolutely nothing and to the point where she had to have a feeding tube fitted through her stomach. At this point my Nana had said 'She just wanted to go because she couldnt cope anymore and it wasnt fair on us'. At that point we knew she was getting tired and felt useless to a certain extent because the things she always did for herself ie: wash, get dressed, feed herself etc, she couldnt do anymore and it was my Grandad (Tommy), Mum (Miffy), Sisters Emma, Jodie and myself that had to do these things for her. The last few weeks leading upto my Nanas death was horrible and they will live in all our minds forever because this was the worst we had saw her throughout her living with the disease. She was always tired and drowsy. She was in bed all the time and sleeping alot which wasnt my Nana. We all knew it was time by now and that she was getting weaker and weaker and you would think that it would have been a bit of a relief because she wouldnt be in pain anymore and suffering like this anymore but it was the HARDEST thing in the world. To watch someone so special and who you loved so much and though of as a 'MUM' to you, die with any disease let alone this one is horriffic!! All the family and my Nanas Sister Brenda came to see her a couple of hours before she died in which we all said how much we Love her and the little things that we wanted to say to her and made her as confortable as we could before eventually she did pass away. I can remember the way she looked when i saw her when she died and she looked Peaceful but not, if that makes anysense? The tears and emotions we all went through that night and morning was unbelievable but also on the other side at least she wasnt suffering anymore with the disease like she had been for 3 long and horrible years, she was finally at rest. A Special Note To My Nan! Dear Nana, I know your gone now and are never coming back but if only i could turn back the clock so that i could hold you in my arms again and tell you just how much i Love You and Miss You. Since you've been gone and since Grandad has joined you in 'Heaven' ive done some bad things which i will never ever forgive myself for but i just want you to know how SORRY i am for that and i WILL make it up to you BOTH and to MUM, EMMA, JODIE etc. I Love You BOTH SO SO MUCH and MISS you BOTH more each and EVERYDAY. You will BOTH ALWAYS be in my heart and NEVER EVER Forgotten. Sleep Well Nana & Grandad and i cannot wait for the day that i get to see you both again. All My Love Your Grandson (Paul) x x x x